I realized some things he was doing and saying didn’t have “future” in it…meaning when he talked about the life he wanted for himself it didn’t include a significant other.
One night we were playing darts and I asked if he thought he would ever marry again…he looked heavenward and answered, “Do we have to have this conversation now?”
A couple of days later, over the phone, I reluctantly told him that I felt that we were in different stages of want…as far as relationships go.
I told him that while I fine with dating, I didn’t want to date someone whose end goal isn’t marriage.
He said okay.
A few days passed and he called me up. He said, “I really want to see where this leads…”
Minutes later he called me back to say I would be meeting his best friend, who would be joining us too.
So we meet at his favorite watering hole…His friend is a cynical, single millionaire. I instantly bond with him. We all hang for a while but then Jaded Millionaire can no longer tolerate Underwear Guy and I gazing deeply into each other’s eyes; he leaves.
Underwear Guy makes some flippant remark about relationships, tears instantly spring to my eyes but don’t fall. He shakes his head; as if to say ‘don’t…’ or ‘stop’.
I know if I stay longer the tears are gonna fall…so I tell him I have to leave.
He said, “….please don’t go…just be patient with me…I had an awful day today and it’s YOU that I called to be with…”
I stayed…
There was only one Marvin Gaye song on the jukebox; I Heard It through The Grapevine.
Later while we were getting ready to leave, one tear did fall down my face.
He dried it with a crumpled up bar napkin.
(just to be clear...not US)
(just to be clear...not US)
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